#believe

I've thousands of unanswered questions that kept on buzzing me, non-stop. I kept on questioning myself on everything that I've done. Was it too much? Was it me? Did I? I can put all the blame on my shoulder too. I can take all the hates, and cry, and get back stronger tomorrow. I can, and I am actually doing it everyday. Just that, I wonder, 'til when?

I know this isn't healthy. So, I take a step back.
Strong? less likely. Struggling, but surely.

 & I hope it worth the struggles.

Hurts

I know what exactly I should do, but then I just can't. It's hard, superb hard. When both the heart and brain tends to linger the opposites way, you know exactly where they gonna lead you. But there's you, sitting right there looking like an idiot, in denial. 

This is not the first time, but this time it hits real bad. Maybe because it is not just about me, it is about my life, those people that means the world to me. I less likely to let my ego in moreover when it comes to this context. I tend to put everything away, because I value this more than myself, my ego. Usually, I don't care how silly I may look like, but this time, is different. Totally different. 

You may not meant it that way, but it hurts real bad.