Hurts

I know what exactly I should do, but then I just can't. It's hard, superb hard. When both the heart and brain tends to linger the opposites way, you know exactly where they gonna lead you. But there's you, sitting right there looking like an idiot, in denial. 

This is not the first time, but this time it hits real bad. Maybe because it is not just about me, it is about my life, those people that means the world to me. I less likely to let my ego in moreover when it comes to this context. I tend to put everything away, because I value this more than myself, my ego. Usually, I don't care how silly I may look like, but this time, is different. Totally different. 

You may not meant it that way, but it hurts real bad.